thank God. i thought this week would never last.
im off to home [isabela] again tonight.
which means another pain in the butt coz id have to sit my ass in a chair in a bus for the entire 9hours on the road.

i added a link on 'isabela' if you wanna know a little bout my province. hehehe. i'll be back after the weekend, and by that time, i hope i'd have more plenty of time to blog.
ima leave with this hot video of nelly furtado featuring the acoustic version of promiscuous. i version i consider better than the original. hehe.

bud triph!!

hayupz talaga. tama ba yun? bigyan ako ng mabababang midterm grades sa dalawa kong subjects. one's business law 2. hayup yung manzano na yun. ang tamad tamad pumasok. pag pumasok naman para kaming kinakantahan ng lullabye dahil [soooobrang!] nakakaantok siyang magdiscuss. pagmagjojoke naman siya, kung merong word na mas korny pa sa word na korny, un na un. tapos bobo pa magenglish. hayupz, nababadtrip ako pag meron xang nasasambit na wrong grammar oh di kaya namimispronounce na words. like for example, ung word na "important", sakanya, "imFortant". hay, sana di nalang siya nagturo. namimis ko tuloy prof ko nung law1. she's waaaaay better than him. i'd be more than glad if one day i hear news about him getting sacked dahil hindi siya bagay magturo. hmf! badtrip talaga.

yung isa naman sa major. shet talaga. nung nalaman ko grade ko dun, parang everything around me turned gray. parang nawalan ng kulay. para bang meron 'dementor' na kumikiss sakin sucking out all the happiness in me. hay alam ko o.a. na pagkakadiscribe ko pero un nga talaga. parang napakabobo ko naman to receive such a grade as low as that eh andalidali ng subject na yun. well, not that easy, pero yakangyaka ko naman. huhuhu. kasi naman! si mam eh, ayaw aku bigyan ng remedial exam nung umabsent ako that time na nag-chapter test sila, [that was the day when i family arrived from Dubai]. eh isa lang ang quiz ngayung midterm kaya hind ko na nabawi. napaka-inconsiderate naman kasi!

ngayun, hindi ko na alam kung pano ko pa mababawi mga grades kong yun.

parang nawalan na tuloy ako ng ganang magaral. . . .

haay, pasenxa na. i just needed to release my anger. hehehe. thanks blog for being my outlet.

The Unreachables

As human beings, its just normal when you start to have realizations on things that would prefer to do. but of course, one can't live forever to do achieve all his desires, so he would rather prefer focusing on what's already in store for him especially when he had those realizations all too late. im human, so below is a list of my aspirations, ambitions, desires, and endeavors which i believe that i will never achieve.

1. i wanna be a model. y know. a guy who gets his butt uber busy with pictorials, shooting, and in being famous. but with tummy as big as mine, i know i really ought to include this in this list.

2. i wanna be a pilot. blaah! having impaired eyesight, c'mon dex, get real! it was just that wonderful feeling of flying and being over the clouds that made me desire to fly an aircraft.

3. i wanna be a magna cum laude. but my grades won't make me qualify for this one.

4. i wanna be a doctor. i know i will never be one anymore because i have already taken up another course. and since i noticed that medical doctors are rich people, im guessing that would count as one reason why i wanted to practice medicine plus im really interested in this field, curing ailments, incisures, injections, and all that jazz. hehe.

5. i wanna win a nobel prize. oh cmon. who wouldn't wanna win this prize? hihihi, and since im nice, i would be more than willing to accept a nobel prize for peace.

6. i wanna work something out that could get rid of the wars that are happening today in this world. [this is what im talking about in number 5!! :p] but nothing we can do now can stop any of it.

7. i wanna go visit other planets just like the prince did in Exupery's The Little Prince. Have a little adventure of that sort. But the technology needed may only become available after my death.

8. i wanna be rich. filthy rich. richer than bill gates! yeah, i believe in the impossible with this one. such a cheap desire huh.?

9. i wanna have super powers. [xempre! hindi na 'to mawawala sa list na'to] one such as that of an Avatar. [one who is gifted to control the four major elements] kid stuff!!

10. i wanna be friends with Sheikh Mo, the ruler of Dubai, and UAE's current Prime Minister. now don't ask again why this one's included in this list. the reason why i wanna be friends with him is because i admire him in being a great leader. i mean, for me he's the best. just take a look on what he did to Dubai. Phew! Truly terrific.

so there you have it. my list of the most unreachable desires and endeavors in my life.
yeah i agree, i am boring........ sigh

sad

me: pa, nawala po digicam ko sa quiapo po. nadukot po sa bag ko.
dad: bakit? anung ginagawa nyo jan??
me: magiinterview po kasi kami para sa feasibility, eh dinala ko po ung cam para po sa documentation.
dad: eh yung cellphone mo hindi ba nawala?
me: hindi po nasa bulsa ko po kasi.
dad: ah ganun ba? oh cge magingat ka nalang jan.
me: oh sige po 'pa, bye.
dad: sige sige, bye.

yes you have read it right, from the telephone conversation with my dad above. i lost my old precious camera. huhuhu. i only noticed it right after crossing an overpass bridge at quiapo, after alighting from the bus from makati, while looking at my reflection at a window glass. i just noticed the zipper from my bagpack, the one in front, was wide open. i cursed as i remembered that i have placed my camera in that pocket and i have neglected to place it at the larger portion of my bag. i digged through it hoping that i'd still find it, but it was no where to be seen anymore.
sigh, i felt my heart get crushed after that confirmation that never will i ever see it again.

after that. i felt different emotions rage inside of me. i felt anger. because someone has violated me, my rights, and the law. i felt disgust. because i belonged to this race wherein the violation of filipinos to other filipinos is very common. i felt like blaming myself for my negligence over my properties. i felt like blaming my own girlfriend, because of her, my attention then was only focused on her, and not with my sorroundings. i even felt like blaming our subject adviser because it was her who instructed us to interview 3 brokerage firms that vary in locations. i felt afraid, because my parents might get too disappointed in me, that they would never entrust me with these costly gadgets again. i know im bad about blaming my teacher and even my own girl. but i guess that's just the way it is when you experience something really traumatic. yes, after 3 years here in manila, this has been my first time na madukutan

but im really thankful that my friends were there to cheer me up, they even tried to find that disgusting filthy creature that took my camera away from me, but they were unsuccessful. [wow andrama] it just feels so SAYANG kasi i only managed to use that camera for only a year and now here i am, being a cameraless person.

i guess that just the way its meant to be. i have been feeling so lucky these past months for receiving such blessings and now i think its time that some other people get lucky naman. pero i swear that if ever i find out who that criminal is, im gonna kick his balls real hard until it gets really smashed........................................................................................................................................ im also thankful that my dad didnt get mad when i told him about what happened. i'll wait 'till my mom will.. sigh.

time to review for business law and world lit now. chao.

the paiiiin!

now that the typhoon chedeng is gone, another one has arrived..

i call it... nope not Dodong. its

THE MIDTERM EXAMS.

sigh.

another pain in the brain!! look at me frownin' over this hideous storm in my life as a [lemme borrow Per's term] STUPIDENT.

rain drops keep fallin'on my head

i've read this SAD thingy from one of the blogs i've been to.
and since its raining outside, i think i'ma share some bits about it.
SAD actually stands for Seasonal Affective Disorder [that is for all of those who dont know what it means yet :) ]

According to wikipedia, Seasonal affective disorder, or S.A.D., also known as winter depression or winter blues is an affective, or mood, disorder. Most SAD sufferers experience normal mental health throughout most of the year, but experience depressive symptoms in the winter or summer.

i know some of you guys experience this sometimes.
and i know some people who do.
especially girls. they just turn unexplanably sad and gloomy all of a sudden when we experience a rainy day at school. its like one moment they were so happy then suddenly it rains when they start acting like as if a demon has snatched all the happiness in their hearts.

well, i know it says winter depression in the definition but hey, san ka naman nakakita ng snow sa pinas?? :) philippines has only in fact two seasons. the wet one and the dry one. so lemme just define sad in a philippine setting. SAD is also known as a rain depression. ghahaha did i get that right?

anyway, i still don't get the point why im discussing this right now.
im guessing maybe because i'm one of those people who suffers this syndrome sometimes. and its something that i don't really understand what's causing this sudden change in my mood when it rains. but don't really act all depressed and mopy. its just that when it rains, i just feel very relaxed like as if its the perfect time to be letting go of all the worries that's sometimes causing excruciations in my life.

its the time wherein i act all quiet because it sometimes seems that the rains tells me to listen to its rain drops and to the winds it creates. its like its the perfect time to ponder on my dreams and it gives me the time to remind myself that albeit all the experiences in this life, the time to relax must not be neglected.
so there.

i know it sounds all nuts but i dunno, that's what i really feel. its really wonderful when the rain's around because i know there'll always be a rainbow after that.
and i don't need a therapy for this!! i don't consider it as SAD either [im talkin' bout the disorder here]. :)

post bago matulog

had a very busy day in ortigas pasig.
we were working on our feasibility study.
im still suffering from a headache. :(
twas my very first time to sleep in public.
i passed out when we were already at megamall.
tambay sa food court since we were already too tired to stroll.
laid my head down on the table then unconsciuosly dozed off.
my friends said they were trying to wake me up but i was totally asleep.
as in deep slumber :)
i think i slept for like more than 30 minutes. good thing.
or else my headache now would be even worse.
didn't have enough sleep pa naman last night. slept for like only 5 hours.
nway enough about the sleep talks.

ive been trying to save the skin i downloaded from blogskins.com but i havent been victorious in doing so. can anyone please help. haha.

bobo kasi.

aun. antok na ko.
goodnightyness.

oopz. magbloghop p pla muna ko. something i missed doing.

hmm, craving for pizza.and bk whopper. and a kfc chiken wing. nyakz

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havin' fun with the lights.. Rasenggan!!! haha erm a white one though it should be blue. malay natin chakras in real life is colored white pala talaga. (: