sad

me: pa, nawala po digicam ko sa quiapo po. nadukot po sa bag ko.
dad: bakit? anung ginagawa nyo jan??
me: magiinterview po kasi kami para sa feasibility, eh dinala ko po ung cam para po sa documentation.
dad: eh yung cellphone mo hindi ba nawala?
me: hindi po nasa bulsa ko po kasi.
dad: ah ganun ba? oh cge magingat ka nalang jan.
me: oh sige po 'pa, bye.
dad: sige sige, bye.

yes you have read it right, from the telephone conversation with my dad above. i lost my old precious camera. huhuhu. i only noticed it right after crossing an overpass bridge at quiapo, after alighting from the bus from makati, while looking at my reflection at a window glass. i just noticed the zipper from my bagpack, the one in front, was wide open. i cursed as i remembered that i have placed my camera in that pocket and i have neglected to place it at the larger portion of my bag. i digged through it hoping that i'd still find it, but it was no where to be seen anymore.
sigh, i felt my heart get crushed after that confirmation that never will i ever see it again.

after that. i felt different emotions rage inside of me. i felt anger. because someone has violated me, my rights, and the law. i felt disgust. because i belonged to this race wherein the violation of filipinos to other filipinos is very common. i felt like blaming myself for my negligence over my properties. i felt like blaming my own girlfriend, because of her, my attention then was only focused on her, and not with my sorroundings. i even felt like blaming our subject adviser because it was her who instructed us to interview 3 brokerage firms that vary in locations. i felt afraid, because my parents might get too disappointed in me, that they would never entrust me with these costly gadgets again. i know im bad about blaming my teacher and even my own girl. but i guess that's just the way it is when you experience something really traumatic. yes, after 3 years here in manila, this has been my first time na madukutan

but im really thankful that my friends were there to cheer me up, they even tried to find that disgusting filthy creature that took my camera away from me, but they were unsuccessful. [wow andrama] it just feels so SAYANG kasi i only managed to use that camera for only a year and now here i am, being a cameraless person.

i guess that just the way its meant to be. i have been feeling so lucky these past months for receiving such blessings and now i think its time that some other people get lucky naman. pero i swear that if ever i find out who that criminal is, im gonna kick his balls real hard until it gets really smashed........................................................................................................................................ im also thankful that my dad didnt get mad when i told him about what happened. i'll wait 'till my mom will.. sigh.

time to review for business law and world lit now. chao.